After the awards, I met up with some of my fans (thank you all for screaming your heads off), one of them came up to me in private and said "I hate Dai Yang Tian", I'm assuming for "snatching" the Best Newcomer Award from me. At that instance the statement just felt wrong and I brushed it off by replying that she shouldn't be talking this way.
But somehow, her statement got stuck in my head.
Should I be angry? jealous? should I feel small or even worthless... after all, I have been beaten flat at my first Star Awards.
Maybe I should, but all I felt was excitement.
Remember when you thought you were good at something, then someone came and beat you by a mile? First you feel like shit, you realise you are rubbish and you want to quit...
Well, I have experienced enough failures and met enough talented people to skip all that part and get straight to realising that I now have a challenge. Something to overcome, something to prove. It makes me want to work harder, to re-read and study my old scripts again, to work out 6 days a week and to put my heart and soul into honing my craft because now I have to prove my worth.
Yang Yang has been my friend, even before The Little Nyonya's production started, and from the time we have spent together, I realised that he has values that I hold close to myself as well. He is driven, passionate and grounded, and I think he has shown us that side of him when he said "I hope you all will keep your eyes on me, because I will definitely become better" after receiving the award. So don't hate him, thank him for bringing life into our Media and waking everyone else up.
阳阳,
赛跑不要只往前面冲, 回头看, 我可能就要追上了... 我们一起加油吧!
Ant.
